OK now…please listen God! You got me up writing all these messages and feeling a lot of “aha” moments. Am I writing these messages for others…or is it really helping me! I think it’s both.
The revelations and insights are helping me and making me feel some kinda way. Why didn’t I know these things before? How many people have I hurt? How many people have I helped? Have I been my own worst enemy and saboteur? Will I get better? Will I have the right words to express what I am discovering?
I am learnig to process my past poor choices and emotional pain, mourn, feel, deal, heal, grieve, repent, and grow from them.
Everytime I feel I have grown on one level of my life, I find myself back in Your operating room to remove a cancerous thought, unrealistic expectation, belief, or habit.
I am no longer resisting the spiritual surgery. I am healing and learning at the same time. The process hurts at first before I begin to feel better. I have to give up denial, worry, procrastination, and doubts.
It’s hard sometimes to fight a battle when I’m still limping from the last shot, cut, fall, kick, loss, or wound. Yes, God, I’m learning to be resilient and practice what I teach.
I am reading this morning Isaiah 42:3 and encouraged by this scripture that says, “a bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick He will not quench ” because even though many of us are heavy laden with doubts, fears, and wounds…we will bend but not break, because of Your divine love. Even though our inner candle is smoldering and about to go out, Your grace revives the flame of purpose, hope, and strength within us.
Lord, I need Your guidance to share the essential pearls of wisom I have excavated from the depths of my soul, experience, self-awareness, prayer, and study.
I thank you Lord for Your grace, mercy, and marvelous light which are accelerating my growth and peace.
Thank you for my “aha” moments enabling me to see more clearly how to overcome bitterness, depression, doubts, worry, and unrealistic expectations from others.
I get it God…every marriage needs a balance between intimacy and independence. Beginnigs and endings will happen…friends, customers, and business associates will come and go. My body needs healthy foods, water, and exercise. I must see, seek, and seize opportunities beyond my comfort zone. Continue learning so I can pass any of my tests (i.e. patience test, wilderness test, grief test, character test, courage test, faith test). Trust in Your divine order. Remember my prosperity commandments. My thoughts and words have power to create what I focus on. I must keep the main thing…the MAIN THING!
Thank you for placing so many wonderful people in my life who see me and value my journey and purpose. I will stay in the light.